Job & Money, Job & Money

So, after I was banned from my job, I returned to vacation, and things got worse (as they sometimes do before they get better.)

I was accused of threatening to burn down the building.

Yup, I kid you NOT.

The owner called me late one evening and said 3 people were willing to SWEAR that they heard me say it. Ironically, the three people were the GM, his married girlfriend, and an ex-con; all of whom hate me.

If I said, it, I don't recall. It was that point that I realized that the fight simply wasn't worth it.

Go figure. I quit that night on the phone, but the owner (with whom I worked out all the "you're not durable issues), kinda begged to have me stay on.

The result: I work as a consultant from home. PERIOD. I have what I want, and I no longer have the demon's spawn aka GM in my way.

In other news, I started with a new company that also allows me to work from home. I never leave my apartment unless I have an appointment, but of course I leave so I won't slip into February/ March again.

I'm happy with work, I have an opportunity to make lots of money, and THAT is good.

They're All Mad, I Tell Ya!

Recall my family blow out and my brother being admitted.

Well, TWO WEEKS after my brother entered the hospital, he was released after promising to take his medicine and giving my parents a guilt trip.

So you know I'm plenty pissed off, right?

Why?

1. My brother doesn't get it. 1 day after his release, he stopped taking meds and disappeared again.

2. It STRESSED ME OUT to get him into a GOOD hospital. Based on where he lives, when the police and EMS are called, he must be taken to a state hospital that is absolutely despicable. I had to pull Ocean's 11 -like moves to get him into a better hospital. I can't do that again.

3. Guilt Trip? Are you kidding me? My brother lost 1/2 of his body weight from being too paranoid to eat, and was TALKING TO HIMSELF, and you let him out because he "promised to take his meds"? My brother has NEVER taken his medicine voluntarily.

I'm irked. So irked, they'll deal with it.

Zzzzzz's

I haven't slept in about 2-3 weeks. By sleep I mean more than 3 hours each night.

SO many factors that play into my inability to sleep:
- Family drama and Brother's Bip
- New job
- Revised Old Job
- The Italian
- Cousin

The list truly can go on.

Have you ever smelled Valerian Root? It smells like hot garbage! Hence, I haven't exactly been ecstatic about taking it.

Sad to report that I'm taking a Lunesta tonight. Yes, I'm sad about it. (Not gonna tell you how I got the pills, but I have 3; doing a trial.) I didn't want to resort to meds, but there is so much I need to do that I simply can't afford to be less than 100%. For the last 2-3 weeks, I've been at 43%.

Taking 2mgs tonight and will see you in the am.

Hi

It's been a while.

So much has happened in last 2 weeks that I'm at a loss on where to begin.

I'll simply dive in.

Here I go.

God Said

God told me that I'd be alone for this leg of the journey and that I shouldn't expect to take anyone with me.

I don't wanna, but that's what I'm prepared to do.