Rosie Is Right

Today on the view, Rosie O'Donnell said one of the major issue with people struggling with any disease is that in their recovery, all they focus on is the disease.

They were talking about anorexia, but it applies to being bipolar as well.

We are whole people; not flawed or less than because of what we have. I think she articulated what my sister has been telling me and what I've been struggling to bring to fruition in mya life.

I am not bipolar. I am butterfly FIRST. I just happen to be bipolar, like I just happen to have asthma or brown eyes.

I want to focus on the other wonderful aspects of my life and what makes me special instead of filtering everything through the bipolar lens.

Thankful for a clear mind to embrace bits of wisdom and change.

I'm Sleeping!

So, I've been off meds, right.

One of the reasons I went on them is that I wasn't sleeping AT ALL!

Well, I've been leaving my Treo on at night because all emails come to my phone, and I can gauge if I've been sleeping by if I hear those email chirps.


Well, I had 19 by 3am, and I heard not even ONE!

Yahoo for me!

Anyway, this is my hour long sleep ritual:

1. Shower with lavender oil.
2. Lavender oil on my pillw and in the oil burner.
3. Meditation music playing.
4. Lavender oil on my purple eye pillow.
5. 10 minutes of meditation.
6. 10 minutes of reading my bible.
7. Counting backwards from 100.

The list goes on, but I rather do this than pop another damn pill!

Thankful for being able to sleep!

Hi

Nausea is subsiding, and I'm feeling a bit better. One of the great things is that my brain feels fine. I can focus at work, and I am witty and smart and charming and positive and, oh behave!

But I'm feeling great!

March and April were so angry, so I want may to be more of me, the happy me because truly, that me ROCKS!

I'm gonna end each post this month with something I'm thankful for; no matter how b*tchy the post. So, because tody is the 2nd, I'll do two:

1. Thankful that I have a desire to do what works for me no matter how contraversial it may be.

2. Thankful that I have an owner who is understanding.

Ciao!

Happy May!

Here's to my blogger family. I love you all!


Thankful for my readers; even more grateful for the feedback.

You're Too Negative!

I asked someone to leave my office yesterday.

I told them they were too negative and affecting my aura and mood.

They thought I was being mean, and for a brief second, I cared, but then I stopped.

Who the hell wants to hear whining and negativity with each interaction?

Now that I am off meds, I need to be aware of all the negativity around me. I must be pro -me and do everything to ensure that I no longer need meds.

So, world, if I hurt your feelings by telling you to go away or be quiet, or if I don't return your calls or close my office door, it's because I'm protecting me and you are such a detriment to my emotional and mental stability and success.

Can't be near any muthaf*ckin killjoys!

Get a f*ckin grip! I'm doing my work, do yours!