One year ago yesterday, I was under suicide watch until I escaped out of the hospital.
On year ago today, I felt like this, this, this and this.
I had a huge birthday party last year. I was VERY manic, but I ultimately had a good time, I think. Don't remember much.
This year, I self-checked all day long to gauge how I felt.
Was I sad about my family not saying happy birthday? Nope. I was just sad that they didn't pause their "You Suck" Campaign to give me some peace today.
I really feel like they would prefer me dead than married.
I want to tell them I hate them, only because I want them to have their peace disturbed as much as mine is. I don't mean it, but I wish they would back the
It's cool. At some point, God place ginormous amounts of courage inside of me. I'm taping into it and refusing to be depressed.
I have an interview tomorrow.
11 comments:
Don't let your family get you down, especially on your birthday. You deserve a day to be happy since it's your birthday. Their issue with you getting married is just that... THEIR issue, not yours.
Happy Birthday B! :D
(((((((((((Butterfly))))))))))))
Sorry the folks are too selfish to be happy for you.
Good luck with the interview tomorrow!
GOOD LUCK ON YOUR INTERVIEW!!!
Sounds like you're making some good progress in the life of courage. It takes a lot to use that courage and avoid depression. But you're like David with that stone and Depression is the Goliath with that stone coming straight to the forehead and he's a dead man. Good for you.
Happy Birthday!
A new year, a new start.
Be born again, sister! But not in that Bible-beating, judgmental kind of way, b/c frankly that's just unattractive... ;)
I hope you enjoyed your day!
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HAPPY BRITHDAY!!!!!!!
Most of you know me as “Dreamwriter.” I recently
Launched a new blog called, “Bipolar Speaks.” One day something came over me as I was reading websites called “Post Secret” and also a blog who had a post where they had quotes from other Bloggers with mental illness about how they felt.
It occurred to me that WE need an escape to let out our feelings and frustrations. I know that a lot of bloggers say what they feel within their own blogs, but you are welcome to share your thoughts, opinions, and feelings.
You are welcome to help raise awareness and put a stop to the Stigma that lies within mental illness. We can change the world - one story at a time.
I thought it would be interesting
To design a “Safe Haven” for those who battle with a Mental Illness; and allow them to come and let out their most darkest, painful, and emotional feelings. This would be a great way to spread awareness by letting society know what is REAL about mental illness.
If you are interested, you can submit a story or short piece as an “Anonymous” contributor, or if you don‘t care about what others think, then feel free to reveal your blogger identity; its purely up to you.. I tried this several times and the “Anonymous” button works and ends up in my email as an “Anonymous” comment.
The rules and regulations are in the blog within a post. Take the time to read them thoroughly and I hope that you become a constant contributor.
Remember, we all have things on our chest to let out and we all truly don’t want others to know. But now is an opportunity for YOU to speak up, speak out, and be heard!
I know that I have a lot of feelings and issues that I don’t want my husband, friends, or family to know about…this is my chance to get it off my chest and I WILL be a constant contributor.
Depending on the issue, I might submit the story under both “anonymous” and my name.
Go to “Bipolar Speaks” and look around, don’t forget to display the Bipolar Speaks button on your blog and link it back to us.
By the way, I still have my other blog, so don’t forget about me over there, too. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Isn't funny how when we look back at our lives - we truly are so different?
That is why I print out my blog - To see the differences each month and each year...its amazing.
Hope you have a great birthday!
Happy birthday, Butterfly.
Spread your wings. You can, and will, go far. Don't let some family members who have no idea get you down.
I LOVE MY BLOG FAMILY!!!!!!!!
Thank you all.
I was sad, but I pulled through and the following days were great.
Thanks again.
P.S. Dream, I'll see you over on Bipolar Speaks.
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