You can only be as supportive as the absence of shit in your life.
Think about it.
When you're in the middle of a crisis (whether anyone deems it a crisis or not), how much energy do you have for someone else?
When I was feeling suicidal I couldn't help myself. The last thing I could do was help anyone else.
OK, so I'm happy, I'm not suicidal, but I have my own day to day struggle to stay upbeat and positive; and it truly seems more exhausting than when I was swimming in a suicidal funk.
I'm retraining myself to be a positive chick instead of a surly bitter bitch, and yes,it can be exhausting as hell.
No, I'm not trying to find commonality with those of you who are cycling, depressed or manic; just showing that there are several sides to this bipolar shit.
To be continued.....
2 comments:
Changing stuff about ourselves IS exhausting no matter what we're dealing with. I perfectly understand your need to protect yourself from negativity right now. You need to do what's right for you.
As strong as may appear right now, I know that I am still very fragile.
I'm stepping lightly on my emotional eggshells to ensure I dont do anything to trigger a "relapse".
Before I can help anyone, I need to be healthy for me first.
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