Another popular person aka celebrity committed suicide today. Apparently he had been depressed. Oooo... shocker.
The media, the masses are only concerned with depression when someone popular takes their life, or in the extreme instance of a mass killing.
This story will be gone from the news in 3....2....oh, what did the Kardashian do?
Exactly.
Yeehah!
That's how I'm feeling today.
Am I manic?
I want to say no, but I've got crazy energy and have had an awesomely productive day.
I feel good. I did self-esteem boosting things, and I feel good.
That's all I've got for tonight.
You're not alone.
Yup. That's how I feel today.
Up.
Down.
I love the up because I clean. I do laundry. I fold clothes. I file. I'm productive.
The down.... well, the down, sucks.
Rapid cycling.
Mixed states.
That's where I am, and it's exhausting to be up..and then down do many times in one day.
So I'm back to remind you that you're not alone. You're not weird, and you're definitely not crazy.
Have I mentioned that I hate that word?
Crazy. Hmmm.
You may feel like it. I may feel like it, but we are so much more than our feelings.
Going to watch the Grammy's. I may be back.
It's been... almost 6 years without a post, and now I'm back.
Ashamed? Yes.
Angry? Yes.
Disappointed? Yes.
How did I return to 2006?
I'm on Lexapro and seroquel again, with lamotrigene thrown into the cocktail.
Panic attacks started this new chapter. They started in April, and got progressively worse until I knew that I had no choice. It was medicine or I'd lose my job.
Ironically, in the course of trying to be normal and keep my job, I lost my relationship(s)...two of them.
That's all for now.
I'll reconnect with you all soon.
In the interim, I'm back and pissed.
