Am I weak?

Am I weak because I don't wanna fight?

I'm tired.

I'm exhausted with fighting me, and then after I fight me, I fight having a pity party.

I am tired of fighting.

I want someone to blame; someone I can extract all my aggression on.

I want rest.

Not sleep but rest.

Peace of mind.

Mind ... just slow the f*ck down, please.